when the sun goes down...

isn't there a song that goes "the sun comes up... blah blah ... i'll never be the same..blah blah"


I suppose this has become one of my personal blogs... except it's the only one where I can spill my feelings out because no one reads this one..

every text message and phone call I receive... a little part of me hopes "maybe it's Chris" or "maybe he's finally thought of me"

nope. boy is being disappointed toxic.

question of the day: "trying to not exchange words with the person that I love... is that me trying to be strong? or am I just hurting myself."
it's not easy (and that's definitely an understatement). perhaps it's time for me to accept and move on?

we'll see. This feeling is familiar and I am anticipating.
But there are always so many questions. I guess I'll find out later...

for now, I will live my life with him living in a little space deep in my heart and behind my brain.