best days

yesterday wasn't exactly one of the "best days" we've had...
but again, there wouldn't be any best days if there weren't any "eh" days...

baby,
I want you to know that you mean the world to me and the last thing I have in mind is to hurt your feelings. And I'm sorry if I did. I was selfish and only thought about myself and what I was doing instead of how it would make you feel regardless of how I feel.

I was very worried and nervous for you yesterday (at the Stanford show). I wanted to be there for you because it must have been pretty difficult.. and it makes me feel 10x better knowing that your family is there with you. I cannot begin to tell you how proud I am... picking yourself back up and making the decision to handle this better then anyone ever will. Just know that you don't have to be tough all the time. You don't have to be a horse all the time ;) I'm here. If you need someone to talk to about anything, I'm here. In fact, it's actually preferred that you share your thoughts and feelings with me... no pressure though. ;)

I had a fatty dream last night. It was like a short movie of us and all the things that we've done together. I was so happy to be able to be in your arms and have you in mine. Now I really hope that you'll be back in July because this is getting harder and harder every day...

I love you dear. Alway.