tears of bliss

Reading through Chris' blog posts always makes me tear up... like a little baby.
I am nothing but grateful to have him in my life. It's something that I've had to get used to - a truly caring boyfriend who spoils me and babies me. He makes me feel like everything that I've dreamt of being- a beloved girlfriend, a lady, a princes, and a woman. I want to be his support like he is mine.  I've grown tremendously along side our relationship; something that I never would thought happen. It is such an incredible feeling knowing that someone will hold me no matter what. It's more then comforting, in the end of the day, to know that no matter what happens, we will still be standing, stronger then ever. I have so much faith and trust in us, it's pure bliss. 


The upcoming days will be hard. And it only gets harder from here. 
All I dream of every night is having him back in my arms/being back in his. 
I would be lying if I said there isn't a bit of anxiousness, nervousness, and loneliness... but I know it's just a small obstacle that I have to work through, and I know I will. 

Think

It's staggering how many times I catch myself thinking of her in the little things. Listening to a song. Eating fruit snacks. Reading a book. Laughing. Sleeping. So many things. It's a blessing and a curse. Thinking of her makes everything okay, but knowing she's so far away makes me miss her more. Yet, I can't help but yearn to think about her more. It's as if I'm home; as if the good outweighs any distance or barriers. I knew I loved her very much, but I didn't know I loved her this much.

I'll be thinking of you, love.

Our Song

This is ours. No one else's. No matter what anyone else says.

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones.
I guess that we were once, babe, we were once,
but luck will leave you cursed, it is a faithless friend,
and in the end, when life has got you down,
you've got someone here that you can wrap your arms around.

So hold on to me tight,
hold on to me tonight.
We are stronger here together,
than we could ever be alone.
So hold on to me,
don't you ever let me go.

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart,
but it's no ones fault, no it's not my fault.
Maybe all the plans we made might not work out,
but I have no doubt, even though it's hard to see.
I've got faith in us, and I believe in you and me.

So hold on to me tight.
Hold on, I promise it will be alright.
Cuz it's you and me together,
and baby all we've got is time.
So hold on to me,
hold on to me tonight.

There's so many dreams that we have given up.
Take a look at all we've got,
and with this kind of love,
and what we've got here is enough.

So hold on to me tight.
Hold on, I promise it will be alright.
Cuz we are stronger here together,
than we could ever be alone.
Just hold on to me,
don't you ever let me go.
Hold on to me, it's gonna be alright.
Hold on to me tonight.

They always say, we were the lucky ones.

Home

I'm home. But not really. I feel like my home is in my love's arms. I'm serious. I always feel like something just isn't right unless she's there. I miss you my love. So much.

In the meantime...I'm gonna be hanging out in Hawaii. Trying to figure out what I'm going to be doing. I have no idea now. It's been a whirlwind or a summer so far. Joy has been there for me every step of the way...being the most supportive girlfriend ever. I couldn't ask for better.

I've been having dreams of us lately. Waking up from them are always hard. I never want them to end.

I miss her everything. But I know it's gonna be okay. I know if anyone can do it, we can. We always find a way, and we always make it work. Because we're just that good. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say that, but I'm gonna say it anyway. If anyone can do it, we can. I'm not just saying that. I know we can. It's just gonna be pretty hard. Pretty darn hard. If we love each other as much as I think, we'll be fine. I know. I love you joy. So so much.

best days

yesterday wasn't exactly one of the "best days" we've had...
but again, there wouldn't be any best days if there weren't any "eh" days...

baby,
I want you to know that you mean the world to me and the last thing I have in mind is to hurt your feelings. And I'm sorry if I did. I was selfish and only thought about myself and what I was doing instead of how it would make you feel regardless of how I feel.

I was very worried and nervous for you yesterday (at the Stanford show). I wanted to be there for you because it must have been pretty difficult.. and it makes me feel 10x better knowing that your family is there with you. I cannot begin to tell you how proud I am... picking yourself back up and making the decision to handle this better then anyone ever will. Just know that you don't have to be tough all the time. You don't have to be a horse all the time ;) I'm here. If you need someone to talk to about anything, I'm here. In fact, it's actually preferred that you share your thoughts and feelings with me... no pressure though. ;)

I had a fatty dream last night. It was like a short movie of us and all the things that we've done together. I was so happy to be able to be in your arms and have you in mine. Now I really hope that you'll be back in July because this is getting harder and harder every day...

I love you dear. Alway.

Nostalgia

 

A Disneyland date is demanded! 

I miss our long/short dates at disneyland.. especially the last minute spontaneous ones...

remember that one time when we decided to do all the things that we normally don't do in disneyland like learning how to draw, bug's life, Aladdin... that was such a nice trip just exploring with you.

come back to me so we can go again! 

please?

went into the shower this morning and thought about why the beginning of a relationship will always be "perfect" in our mind. We are able to see directly through the bad times and focus solely on the good and subconsciously make the decision and perhaps label that part of our memory something good.

Or maybe it was much better then the rest because it is our nature to give it all we got when the goal is so ideal and desired.  

So are all relationships destined to head downhill once that puppy-love stage is over because in our mind, we've "got" what we wanted? yes, we all continue to put in effort into the relationship, but do we let things slip and settle for being "okay"?

Perhaps our goal should be learning with one another to extend the life to the relationship and, with a combined effort, sustain a line instead of a curve. 

baby, I love you, so so much. And I want this so bad, for the both of us <3

p.s. i made blueberry pancakes this morning. Thought of you while making them :)

Our conversation

We love each other btw

CB&J... like PB&J

I must say, I'm pretty impressed with myself...
"CB&J"... we're like..."PB&J" (ha, get it?? ;) )
*patting shoulders*
just kidding. ha.ha.
[yeah man, it's our blog. don't nobody be jealous of our blog!]

I, Joy Liu, hereby declare my love for Christopher Kekaniokalani Tsuruo Bright. Let this blog be the witness.

My dearest Christopher,
reading the previous post from you has successfully made me look like a retard smiling at the screen like there's no tomorrow.
but i love it.
you've never failed to make me smile with your cleverness/cheesy-ness (that's my favorite)

I have missed you so much since we walked towards opposite directions at the Oakland Airport. I have found myself, completely unaware, looking through our pictures from this past week and your lovely text messages. I have found myself, suffering from severe nostalgia, going down our memory lane and day-dreaming during a meal. (and that says a lot, because i love my food, i don't mess around with my food time...) Sometimes I honestly think i would go crazy because I miss you and us so much. But hey, I'm already crazy... so crazy about you. ;)

I have to be honest for a second here, when I first stood in front of you during your bad haircut... I did not imagine our relationship to turn out this way (I mean.. yes i thought you were cute and all). But the craziest part is how we have developed through the past almost a year. We became best friends, family, lovers, and all others. You are the perfect one for me. You are the one I want to share everything with. You mean the world to me and I am falling head over heels for you like a little girl. We've definitely had our fair share of up and downs and I am sure that we're only just at the tip of the iceberg. But words cannot express how I feel right now, I am so ready for everything. I'm ready to cry my eyes out for and with you. I'm ready to giggle like a girl. I'm ready to laugh with you like the happiest person on Earth. I'm so ready for this crazy ride. We're ready.

This one is by far my favorite :)

It's gonna be our thing. SF trips=hot chocolate time!

hello, my cutie boyfriend...

We are proud to be poor-homeless-college-students

love love love. p.s. really cute hair

no more public transportation stress...

we. are. so. attractive.

Flying up north was the best decision of my life. I do not regret one bit of it. from the tears shed, the hugs we shared, the good times we had and our poor-homeless-college-students adventures. I would not change any of it. It was perfect. I felt a much deeper connection with you through the rough patch and I realized that I want to be there for you, 200%. Because I will be the first one to cry when you're sad and I will be the first one to throw a party when you're happy. You can always count on my shoulder to be there when you need it and I will be supportive of you no matter what. I'm your number one fan. always. and I love you wholeheartedly.

Chapter 1

My name is Christopher Bright and I am madly in love with Joy Liu. This is our blog. This is us. Our pictures, our stories, our writings to each other, anything and everything us. This is going to be our journey together.

Joy, you are my love. I am so amazingly grateful that you are in my life. I can't tell you how many times I think about you everyday. It's coming up on a year now that we have been together. It's funny because it seems like it's only been 6 months. I want to spend forever with you!

I'm in my hotel right now, on a semi-vacation with my family. I wish that my baby didn't have to leave me to go home several days ago. It's been hard without her. This will probably help a little though.

I love you like I love you Joy!

These are some of the pictures of our adventures this past weekend.